The girl who felt everything

 You know that feeling when life throws a 10 page math problem at you, but instead of solving it, you just stare at it and hope it solves itself? Yeah, that's me...basically everyday! But somehow, here I am still standing, still laughing and maybe, just maybe, learning something.  Life is a mess. Scratch that - Life is hilariously chaotic. One moment, I'm feeling like protagonist of a drama, all intense and emotional  and the next, I'm laughing at how dramatically I spilled coffee on my light blue jeans ( Yes! the new one ). But here's the twist : amidst the chaos, I've discovered something beautiful - ME.  Perfection? Overrated. Tried it once...for about five minutes. Then I sneezed on my notebook and ruined my entire study plan. I don't have awkward moments ..awkward moments have me! Mistakes are funny and those tiny moments that make your heart skip....well, they are best kind of chaos. Honestly, life would be boring without them.  And let's talk about my...

I recently read a book called The Art of Witty Banter by Patrick King. It's all about learning how to talk smart, make conversations interesting, and maybe ever sound like one of those effortlessly funny people who always have a clever comeback ready.  But here's a one thing, people keep telling me I already have good conversation skills. I don't even know how that happened. It's not like I practiced or took a class on "How to talk nicely 101." It just came naturally, I guess. And I'm not saying it in a overconfident way but more like surprised and grateful way. Maybe it's because I actually enjoy talking to people. Or maybe it's because I say random things that accidently turn out funny. Like once, during a casual chat, I said something so unplanned that even I didn't know it was supposed to be a joke but everyone laughed. That's when I realized, maybe my brain has a hidden stand up comedian I never signed up for. Patrick King says witty b...

 There's a word I came across a while ago - limerence. It sounds poetic, but what it really means is that intoxicating, almost obsessive stage of attraction where your mind becomes a looping reel of "them". It's the thrill of anticipation, the way your heart races over a glance, a text, or a simple moment you keep replaying in your head. I've been there. Many times. In limerence, you build a version of the person in your head, not necessarily the real them, but the ideal you want them to be. You romanticize every detail : the way they laughed that one time, the way their hand brushed yours, the way their eyes lingered for just a second longer than necessary. And before you know it, you're chasing that high. It feels addictive because, in a way, it is. Neuroscience even says it - limerence triggers dopamine like a reward system. You become hooked on the anticipation . But here's the catch; it can also be exhausting. You find yourself constantly seeking thei...

 Yesterday, I felt overwhelmed. The kind of overwhelmed where your chest feels heavy and thoughts keep spiraling, and sitting in one place makes it even worse.  So I decided to walk. No destination. No playlist. Just me and the streets of Pune.  The roads were uneven, the breeze was warm, people were rushing around me and bikes kept honking, but somehow it felt comforting. The city felt alive for a moment, and so did I. I passed by McDonald's , thinking about my favorite McSpicy Paneer Burger and how happy it makes me on random days. I saw college kids laughing, couples walking too slowly, uncles and aunties bargaining with fruit vendors and a little girl holding her mother's dupatta so she wouldn't get lost.  And in that moment, I felt found. My legs are hurting today from that walk, but yesterday, those steps felt like therapy. Every step was like telling myself, "It's Okay. You're allowed to feel like this. It's Okay if your life isn't sorted yet. It...

The problem with Patience and discipline is that it requires both to develop each other.   Everyone says, "Have Patience. Be Disciplined." But no one really talks about how these two depend on each other, creating a loop that feels hard to break, especially when you're genuinely trying to put your life together. Recently, I've been trying to balance preparing for the Forensics Exam, taking care of my health, managing family responsibilities and handling my emotions. It sounds good in theory but on many days, it feels like I'm walking on a tightrope. One thing I've realized that discipline isn't about making dramatic changes overnight. It's about showing up for yourselves in short ways, even on days you don't feel like it. But here's the twist : to keep showing up, you need patience, because results don't come the next day. For example, when I decided to follow a structured study plan for my exam, I thought I would see improvement in my focu...

Some people are misunderstood because they hide. But some are misunderstood even when they’re right there sitting next to us, smiling, helping, showing up, just not in the way we expect them to. Raghav is that person in my group. And lately, I can’t keep quiet about how people are getting him all wrong. They think he’s too reserved, too distant, too hard to read. But you know what I see? A boy who feels more than he shows. A boy who cares more than he says. A boy who’s always aware but never loud about it. He’s the kind who remembers the smallest details  like which subject makes you anxious or how your voice slightly drops when you’re tired. But instead of saying “are you okay?” a hundred times, he’ll quietly adjust the fan to your side or send you a reel to make you smile. No drama. Just soft, simple efforts that don’t scream for attention. But people want loud. They want performance. And Raghav isn’t that. He’s slow-burn comfort, not fireworks. He’s eye contact in silence, not a...